My mom mom always used to say, “Don’t wish your life away”. When I heard this I would always wonder what she meant. Now that I am older, I totally understand what she was telling me. I am so guilty of “wishing my life away”; I am always thinking about my next step. When I was in college, it was wishing to be done school to and be a teacher. When we lived in our apartment, I wished to be a homeowner. Now that I am a homeowner, I wish for a bigger house.
Obviously, my biggest wish is to be a mom. Today marks 30 months on the waiting list for our baby(ies). 30 months of waiting, praying, WISHING. A lot of these past 30 months have been a fog. It is so hard for me to live in the moment when I am wishing and praying so hard for our baby(ies).
What I know, however, is that life does not stop just because I am wishing. Life goes on. As it goes on, I can either enjoy life or I can be so consumed with praying for tomorrow that I miss out on the many blessings of today.
I don’t want to do this- because today is blessed. It is. So blessed.
God always meets me right where I am. Always. Even when I fail Him, He is faithful.
I have a husband who loves me. Hard. My Bri is what fairytales are made of. Even after 13 years together, he makes me feel like a princess each and every day. Really. Yesterday he bought me my favorite flowers (our wedding flowers) just because.
I have a mama who walks every road that I am on right beside me. My mom is the definition of love. Her heart and mine are interwoven so intricately- she laughs, cries, and prays with me, always.
I have the most fantastic family. We have been through so much together, and we love each other in a way that defies explanation. My siblings are my best friends and I am convinced that my nieces and nephews are tiny glimpses of heaven.
I have the best friends that encourage me, laugh with me, cry with me, and help me to get through the day. I do not have a TON of friends- but I have a couple of really, really, really close friends that are so close to me I consider them a part of my family.
We belong to a wonderful church with so many opportunities to grow and serve.
We are healthy and have the ability to do crazy things- like run a marathon!
I am blessed beyond measure.
As I wait for the phone to ring, for my arms to be full- I hope I can remember that my arms are, in fact, not empty. As I wait for tomorrow, I pray that I can be content with today.
Thank you, mom-mom, for giving me the advice to not wish my life away. I hope that I can live my life in a way that would make you proud and to enjoy the moment….each and everyday.